smashed

why can’t you leave me alone
leave me alone to my solitude
along to fight with (myself)
the voices are invading
my mind
and i cannot
shut them out
murmurs. whispers. growing.
kicking. screaming. arguing.
your face is racing to become
one with the universe
get the big beat and hold on
agony. agony inside of me. agony.
i can’t figure out this maze
the labyrinth of my mind
and it grows tepid in disuse
it grows scorching in misuse
rain in my brain causing comatose
dreams
a flash of activity
smashed between two faces of reality
i remember your smiling eyes
and your bright smile
i wished for you to kiss away my memory
make me forget
i’m married
ages ago
we met